Kinky Twists and Strawberry Shakes

I was going to post something here........which was a huge paragraph.......but changed my mind.  Be back later.

Relapse...and Bacon Strips...and Uhbacon Strips....and Uhbacons Strips and Uhhhhh

For anyone who cares.....I relapsed with something a couple days ago.....I used to see someone to help with it but I stopped once I knew the ball was in my court.  So I'm getting back to my normal self now....im about 80% there and have been trying to stay off social networks more because my words are always watched and judged and scrutinized......so im going to be more careful and get my emotions under control.  just sometimes the stress from situations i deal with...pressure...makes it feel like the world is on my shoulders  and nobody takes into consideration when stacking the weight on and on and on....but im kind of proud of myself....it's the longest i have gone without breaking down in a long time....so i'll take it that im making progress.....i'll be back to my normal random self soon....ummmmm *pushes up glasses and says "Later days" like dude from The Weekenders*

Pixie Sticks and Golden Tickets

Honestly, I'm more alone than ever lol.  Omg look at that contradiction I just did, putting an "lol" at the end of a polarizing statement....All I have is homework right now and the Lion King wallpaper in my room....hey Simba. Maybe I just need to hang out or something....idk.  It's homework, school, music, pick sis up.....same cycle....welcome to my solo dolo life.  My microphone is my girlfriend.....and she stays faithful, even when I yell at her.  And I never cheat on her....I'm in love with her...she listens....wait....let me stop.  Now this is taking away from my homework time lol.  Maybe the fact I'm more alone than ever heightens other things.....idk.....but this box I live in is not sexy.  I guess like everyone is either with someone or "talking" to someone....and I'm finally not.  I know it's right and it's new for me.....but it's the right thing to do right now.....I have to get back to myself and make myself right and get ahead........even though my old self still wasn't with anyone either, but it was really me.....Now I'll just focus on being me, doing my lame music, loooong homework, drawing things that will get me nowhere and talking to my wall with deep monologues haha......later days blogger..................................................I'm going ghost.

Emptiness and Vacuum Power Cords

One day they're going to look up....and I'll be gone.  Vanished.....but they will be too "caught up" they won't even notice they pushed me away so far.....that I'm not even in their eyesight anymore, because their vision is clouded.  But their vision is fine.....for them.  And then and only then after my absence will they realize all my past outcries for attention......finally go back and look at my mentions.  That the embracing of our banters would be a blessing in a time of my hiatus.  Because the shoulder attached to my body was their pillow in emotional discomfort.  My title used to be of importance but now it's only used out of habit.  Not by me....and not me for them.  I'm supposed to smile all the time.....how dare I ever feel slighted.  I need their presence as much as I always have......but they only need me half....a quarter as much.  If not, that's how it seems.           

Suspenders and Sour Lolipops

• 1. What is your best friends name? kelaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
• 2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now? - green
• 3. What are you listening to right now? - maroon 5
• 4. Whats your favorite number? - 2
• 5. What was the last thing you ate? - rice cake X_X
• 6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? - blue
• 7. How is the weather right now? - pretty decent
• 8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone? - mom
• 9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? - eyes…IMMEDIATELY
• 10. Do you have a significant other? - hell no
• 11. Favorite TV show? - Regular Show
• 12. Siblings? - yep….2 sisters
• 13. Height? - 6’0
• 14. Hair color? - black
• 15. Eye Color? - brown…black?
• 16. Do you wear contacts? - no
• 17. Favorite Holiday?  - christmas
• 18. Month? - june
• 19. Have you ever cried for no reason? - of course
• 20. What was the last movie you watched? The Express
• 21. Favorite Day of the Year? - idk
• 22. Are you too shy to ask someone out? - not nearly as much as I used to be
• 23. Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)? - nope
• 24. Hugs or Kisses? making out, well it depends who hugs for some, kiss for others
• 25. Chocolate or Vanilla? - chocolate
• 26. Do you want your friends to respond to this? - if they want to
• 27. Who is most likely to respond to a text from you? - them
• 28. Who is least likely to respond to a text from you? - them
• 29. What books are you reading? - school books
• 30. Piercings? - no but wondering about it
• 31. Favorite movies? - i have waaaay too many to name
• 32. Favorite football Team? - BEARS!
• 33. What are you doing right now? - answering these questions
• 34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? - butter
• 37. Dogs or cats? - dogs
• 38. Favorite flower? - idk never thought of it
• 39. Been caught doing something you weren’t supposed to do? - yesss
• 40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex? - yup
• 41. Have you ever loved someone? - yup
• 42. Who would you like to see right now? - anyone who is seeable
• 43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten? - yes
• 44. Have you ever fired a gun? - yes
• 45. Do you like to travel by plane? - yea its fun
• 46. Right-handed or Left-handed? - righty
• 47. How many pillows do you sleep with? - one
• 48. Are you missing someone? - all the time
• 49. Do you have a tattoo? - looking up one to get soon
• 50. Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? - of course…..a lot!