Is it a lie to myself that I think I’m a good person? Like it may seem a stupid question. But yes, there are people more morally perfect than me…..and many are morally imperfect. Is God trying to test me again? I told myself these high school thoughts were over but when people provoke the triggers for certain emotion, the mind and body reacts a certain way. Is it so fun for people to play with my emotions cause they think, “Oh….it’s just Michael…..what will he do if I treat him wrong…..frown? lol”….or they have a ‘what have you done for me lately’ feeling. To have people say I’m too nice is utter stupidity. It’s like people ask for people to disrespect them so they have something to complain about. Like ‘well I’m bored….let’s start some drama’. I know in my heart I want the best for everyone that really love me and the ones I love.
IDK…..I just feel fed up with the way this society is. And it’s even worse to see people who were once unique, fall into the exact thing they were fighting against. Is my will stronger than most? Am I living wrong? Do people really not care what I say unless I have a beat in the background? Do people not understand how I feel towards them and that having my love for them questioned pisses me off after I have proven it 100 times over? People changing like it’s no tomorrow…..or am I the one changing and everyone else the same? I concentrate on everything but myself too much. It’s easy for me to express my emotions where for others it’s like hell to talk them out. Maybe it’s just because I’m different. I see the world as a rotating song and nobody thinks like I do. Those that think what’s in my head have only gotten to the cranium level and haven’t gotten to my brain. These days people judge too, going off what they hear and not what they know. Cherish those unknown over the ones who have been there for them. I don’t do that. Also, people who know they are having issues take it out on you and blame you and make it seem like you must apologize every single time like they are perfect! That’s nonsense! Like I am not perfect, people make mistakes….and those who hold mistakes on people for a long time will end up hurt in return. IDK….maybe I’m alone in how I feel on some things. Should I change perspective? Hmmmmmm…….
I just appreciate everything. Even if others don’t return theirs as obvious. IDK why I’m rambling lol…..as usual, I talk too much. But, there is always someone who listen………or………………………..reads! lol
