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I have this friend I haven't seen since last February. We were really good friends and stuff and we met at school when I first transferred. We built a good friendship, for the most part, and her daughter was cool with me. Along the friendship, we would hang out at the school, her apartment, watch movies.....do homework and stuff, just friends stuff. We would run errands and shopped a couple times lol. Along the lines dating came up and we discussed it....the 'what ifs' and things like that. Even though we were 8 years apart, I did think about it...a lot...we both did....A LOT. We decided not to...I didn't want to get too attached to her daughter....she wanted to but wasn't sure if age would play a part. We were still good after that phase....watched dvd's together and stuff lol. But then things changed a little. We started to grow apart some. We didn't listen to kid cudi anymore haha....she started to annoy me....she kept asking me to do stuff for her ALL THE TIME! Well eventually we barely talked at a point. But right after that point...like a month later, she got married. Honestly it weirded me out some...how it happened so fast. She used to joke with me about marriage and how she wanted it. I would be like ooooh ok lol. But she did it...just like that! lol. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for her. I really am. But it's weird also because I miss how we were. The friendship was cool. We actually could hang out as friends and keep it that way even before we started liking each other. Idk if part of me wishes it ended differently or not, but I do miss her. The thing is this though. The old me would message her and be like her, I miss you or something random. Like hey it's me or something. But I know I have to keep it in the past. There is a reason we weren't meant to be friends or something. Idk exactly what but everything happens for a reason. So I guess I'm just rambling about something I won't do and that's message her and say hello. She has her family and stuff which is great. As sad as it sounds, I have to let that go......even though I mean well if I wanted to catch up and see how life was going and everything...see how school is.....see how her daughter is because I miss her too. I even told my best friend I was a little worried I would get too attached to her daughter if we parted way and I did for a while because she liked me a lot and would hug me a lot lol....but idk...we haven't talked for months and months.....so i guess i should just keep quiet :/