I had a dream last night. When I woke up at 6 a.m., I couldn't understand why I would dream something so expansive. I don't want to go in details, but it's deep. Basically, I just care so much....like I try and help as many people I can, I am there for everyone, and my happiness is based on the appreciation of my generosity. Now I see, that I have to work twice as hard to get what some people have fall in their lap. I'm not complaining, I just don't get why. I just need to get these emotions out in a song......I don't even know why I'm writing it. Like I don't want to sound selfish, but I deserve the best. I don't deserve to be hurt again......I try to be as selfless as possible and anyone real close to me can say that about me. I help others get ahead, but I never concentrate on myself. I'm always the one to put in work for others feelings to help them feel better, and even after I tell some people my advice they turn right around and do the same juvenille actions. Part of me feel like everyone is living and having life, making mistakes and enjoying the learning process....partying, being care free, living with no restrictions.......and I'm always expected to be perfect, and nobody understands the pressure I have on my last name. IDK.......I just have mixed emotions right now.......well, just read this........
My Pinocchio Story..............
I never figured out real love
Or seen a miracle from above
Try and give all that I can give
But I can't count one day that I've lived
I spectate and watch the crowd
Hence my opinions as I stand around
I been there for you times before
And still I'm not invited to the floor
It's like I'm not even real....
Just a voice you come to and conceal
Chained to these four walls
And to ask for me everytime you fall
Do you all see what I sacrificed?
To keep you going, happiness sufficed
Gave up the actions of my generation
To keep you close and give you satisfaction
Do you have the stamina?
If you were in my place, to live up to the familia
Can we trade places for a little time?
I want to experience real life.....
I'm looking for someone who matches my soul
Real.......in and out, with no games to know
One day I'll find my way
But does someone such as this exist in this youthful day?
I'm officially on the lookout, searching the scene
I make intentions true, but does my lock have matching keys?
I've beat myself up too long, singing the same song
Can't pass the right girl up, I again say I'm strong
I need some clarity, someone tell me I'm fine
I hear I'm a great person, like all of the time
I don't ask for much, so I deserve this
I need to stop stressing and drive slow, never quit.....................
Tell me what you think?
