Meh.... *Pours Cup*

You ever get that loner feeling even while being surrounded?  Like standing in a cube in a party?  Fuck am I talking about? lol.  Okay let me be more literal.  Ever feel like the ones you wished talked to you more actually did?  OR that the ones you talk to a lot lived closer?  Distance can be a blessing and a curse because sometimes.  Sometimes someone can be geographically close but still have a wall in between the both of you.  Sometimes the wall can be transparent and sometimes it's a mirror.  When it's transparent, you both can see each other fully and if there is any change, you change together.....or grow together.....still being close or whatnot.  When the wall is a mirror, you only see self change and can't really keep track of who they are becoming of if they are even the same person you thought you shared a bond with.  When we have a mirror in between, sometimes the communication breaks down or.......leaves all together.  Sort of like...each of you going your own way....doing things without inviting the other...not acknowledging the "bond" that was there in the first place.  So eventually one notices being slighted in the deal and speaks up, but then usually is labeled a victim of circumstance even though they had no control of the other person.  So where does that leave them?  Are they stuck in a real of present history?  Living a double sided farce?  Fuck if I know....but for someone whom plays the often left behind or left out of the loop individual, I can say for one that it's not a fun role to play or be enthusiastic about.